It's Friday night, and it's 23:55. I am still sitting on my bed. Not my usual weekends night. I just feel like I have to write. But, I can't think of anything to write about.
While was walking back home from work today, (usually I will felt pang of excitement, and rushingly back home, as it is Friday, but that does not happened today) I think. And when I actually think, it means bad news!
Perhaps, it is one of my downy days. I'm counting the days. I'm aged, day by day. Simple English, I am getting old. And worst scenario, I am all alone. (I know, I know. I am back to the same topic, my pathetic love-life!)
I know that I keep on telling myself, shoved off those dickheads, as what 70steen keeps on telling me. But somehow, as you aged, you will definitely have this thought once in a blue moon! Plus, I am no where to be near to anyone called family. In any other word, I am all alone! Oh, and counting the days...
My friends are getting married, having a kid or maybe, some of them... kids! (mind the 's', showing the plural, obviously!). And, what happened to me? Faling down from one to another pathetic, love-life scenario! Why should I always be unlucky, and all the bad omen falls to me? Am I really, really that bad? Maybe Little Lost Cat will tell you how I feel.
And, I pity my family, especially my mum. she definitely wants to see me happy, and of course to see and even play with her grandchildren, but having me as her daughter (one black sheep of the family, said it all!), what will happen eventually? Dissapointing her?
I am so in my topsy-turvy mood right now. One minute I am happy, and the other, I am dead on the floor, like a corpse! Unbelievable nonsense-me!
I am thru'. Help me out!
1 day ago
6 twirls with baby:
hey you are never 'alone' you have friends ... real and on hyperspace and you have family .....what you feel is being lonely.
Your Mum loves you she always will always love you (hey I am a mum & I was a lot older than you before I became one) whether you bring her grand children or not
You won't disappoint her I promise
hi 70steen, thanks for the good, overwhelming words... appreciate that loads!
but, the first part of it, i think i dont have friends... im speaking about the real life friends... (i know that i have the 'hyperspace' friends!!! ;) ). i think i dont have any real friends now. somehow, it seems to finished. one by one... as i am realizing it now. since, i dont feel i have any real ones... i dont know. i am so in my downy moods. i am so unpredictable! (whoops! i just realized tht!) just like the irish weather! sigh, it sux! *in tears, so no twirling*
hey buck up ... if you feel you have no 'real' friends then the hyperspace ones are here for you
You are a long way from home where you are, you have just had time with your Mum etc so will feel down but hyperspace puts you in touch with them again I hope?
You will make more friends and I guess you will have friends but have not just realised it yet ... get out of that 'downy mood' it is the weekend :-)
hahha... didnt know that you're still here! thankss!! *kisses*
oh, help me out with the christmas getaway then! i need to go somewhere... there's too long holidays for me, and i will ended up being a couch potato if i didnt go anywhere.. uhh, i think thats the thing that made me go all downy thingy, just like teen, maybe a bit older teen... of yours.. ;)
thanks again! *trying to back to twirl again!*
Hey I have a Teen that gets down because she can't straighten her fringe lol
Ok get aways for Xmas ...... skiing in Switzerland (lots of snow), Germany for some fab Xmas markets, Australai because it is summer there, London because the shops are fabulous at Xmas and there is loads to see... the British Museum, The Portrait Gallery, The Tate, Trafalgar Square fir New Year.... so many places to see
would love to go to swiss, and germany... (havent you read up my post up there?) *giggles*
london, through with it! too many times, i was there! :)
aussie, nope. i want snow, i want snow... snow, snow, snow... to make angel snow! ;)
P/S: tell Teen, have straight hair doesnt really make you happy as well, aah... maybe we human always dont know how to appreciate what we have! sigh! (im saying about myself...) *smile*
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