Popped In The Dirty Bin

'GREAT NEWS' everyone!

I've been popped in the dirty bin! Just at lunch time today. It was awful! I felt stupid, dreadful (just like the weather in Dublin... sigh), not-worth-even-a-single-penny, and most of all (in the consequent orders) ... I have been;

1. Neglected
   
2. Abandoned
3. Ignored
4. Thrown/Dumped
5. Left

To summarize, I had a boyfriend (OMG! I even feel horrible when I have to write in 'had' instead of 'have'... silly me!). We were sort of having a long distance relationship for about 4 months now (not anymore... OMG!!).


And, today's date... it's supposed to be our one year one month anniversary. But, things didn't go really well... (And, I am at the bottom of a very narrow well!) As to shorten the story, he just popped the thing, and that's it! Just like that!

I guess, I am not a good girlfriend to him. Maybe not good enough for him. Yeah, I guess so... Maybe he deserves someone better than me, gorgeous-looking girls, with good etiquette and stuffs like that... which, is SO-NOT-ME! (I'm so in the dead end!)


I am still in shocked! I can't do anything, and I can't actually think of what are the things for me to do... I just could not believe like, what just happened! I am so dying to believe that it is just a bad dream, and soon by the next day, I am all okay, and happy with him as my boyfriend... but it is just NOT!

I think I need some time, to sit back and relax. NO, NO!! Oh God!! I am through with this sucky thing... I think I just have to believe that, I am not fated to be with anyone, just no one! Full stop.

I am so sad. Enough said. :(