It has been such a half pleasant, half wrecking day for me. I mean, for the whole situation.
I must be lying if I said I am all okay about it. I do feel sad about it, honestly. I mean, he is a nice guy deep inside. He has the good side of him. He really does. But somehow, he just choose to be a jerk more than any guys would ever thought of... and it just similarly like, pushing me further away.
But whatever it is, I think this is the end, the end! I mean, the end of the whole ends I have in this entire year. It is really finished, and seriously no messing around.
It's a bit of slap on the face. Like, he will be really not be in one of character in my life. No more him, nothing, nil. As I did got some sort of a warn, kind of... saying that when he will be taking the stuff, I should just delete all his numbers, mails, etc. and don't ever think of contacting him, anymore. It was a bit harsh I think, even though I think it is sort of a copycat, as I did already said that to him yesterday that "I don't want to have any contact with him anymore, it's finish..."???
And worst, somehow... I think he did sneak in, and have a peek on my blog, and unfortunately he did read over off all the nasty stuff that I wrote in here, all about him yesterday when I was really really torn? Don't ask me how did I found out that he's been reading, but honestly... like 99% that it is right! He did peek in, and it was at 1pm-ish today. And I guess, somehow... that is where the harshness came from!
It's the truth anyway. So, it must be really hard on him to read about his act in someone's blog! And if he is reading this, here's a message to him. Sincerely from the bottom of my heart...
"It was a pleasure knowing you. And I am being mean, the meanest of all girls if I said that none of the things that you did is good. You did some good things, even some wonderful things to me all these while. But there were more nasty and hurtful things that you did which, shred me into pieces. It was good fun knowing you, and honestly... I treasure those moments, and it was one precious memories, that I keep inside, and will never put it away. But somehow, I did feel strange that it ended up this way, as I thought if you could be a little bit more wiser and mature, things would never never will become this way. I cherish our friendship, relationship, platonic bonding or whatever you may called it, it's nice, but it's done and gone. Hope you will have a wonderful life ahead, and instead of being such a childish, wishing that you will be having bad luck all your life, instead... may you have great fun in everything that you do! Just don't get too carried away with those nasty ego of yours! Oh yeah, and grow up and learn to accept your mistakes when you do have flaws! Not everyone is perfect!"
I am relieved, more relieved somehow! Ah! Back on my two little feet, and the best thing of all... now it is for real! Hooray!!
I must be lying if I said I am all okay about it. I do feel sad about it, honestly. I mean, he is a nice guy deep inside. He has the good side of him. He really does. But somehow, he just choose to be a jerk more than any guys would ever thought of... and it just similarly like, pushing me further away.
But whatever it is, I think this is the end, the end! I mean, the end of the whole ends I have in this entire year. It is really finished, and seriously no messing around.
It's a bit of slap on the face. Like, he will be really not be in one of character in my life. No more him, nothing, nil. As I did got some sort of a warn, kind of... saying that when he will be taking the stuff, I should just delete all his numbers, mails, etc. and don't ever think of contacting him, anymore. It was a bit harsh I think, even though I think it is sort of a copycat, as I did already said that to him yesterday that "I don't want to have any contact with him anymore, it's finish..."???
And worst, somehow... I think he did sneak in, and have a peek on my blog, and unfortunately he did read over off all the nasty stuff that I wrote in here, all about him yesterday when I was really really torn? Don't ask me how did I found out that he's been reading, but honestly... like 99% that it is right! He did peek in, and it was at 1pm-ish today. And I guess, somehow... that is where the harshness came from!
It's the truth anyway. So, it must be really hard on him to read about his act in someone's blog! And if he is reading this, here's a message to him. Sincerely from the bottom of my heart...
"It was a pleasure knowing you. And I am being mean, the meanest of all girls if I said that none of the things that you did is good. You did some good things, even some wonderful things to me all these while. But there were more nasty and hurtful things that you did which, shred me into pieces. It was good fun knowing you, and honestly... I treasure those moments, and it was one precious memories, that I keep inside, and will never put it away. But somehow, I did feel strange that it ended up this way, as I thought if you could be a little bit more wiser and mature, things would never never will become this way. I cherish our friendship, relationship, platonic bonding or whatever you may called it, it's nice, but it's done and gone. Hope you will have a wonderful life ahead, and instead of being such a childish, wishing that you will be having bad luck all your life, instead... may you have great fun in everything that you do! Just don't get too carried away with those nasty ego of yours! Oh yeah, and grow up and learn to accept your mistakes when you do have flaws! Not everyone is perfect!"
I am relieved, more relieved somehow! Ah! Back on my two little feet, and the best thing of all... now it is for real! Hooray!!
3 twirls with baby:
Nicely done Baby ......
*Hugs*
thank you daddy and scratchbags! :)
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