An Ultimate Decision

Hi all! :)

Okay, so it is Monday. I used to hate it, sooooo badly. I mean, who likes Monday? Na'ah. Not really a good day, especially if you are working, and you have to pick up things you left on Friday. And, it is such a headache if you had a lovely weekend beforehand.

However, it is not bad anymore for me now. Instead, I am so much looking forward for Monday to come as Monday is the first day of the week, and I am hoping from the thousands of CVs I have distribute all week, would somehow earn me a phone call, requesting for me to come for a job interview! But then again, I am so hoping for it, that it has never come true! Not yet...

Well, after browsing through websites and tons of emails saying things like, "we have received your application, but we regret to inform you that you have not been shortlisted for the interview for the post... we wish you luck in your next future...bla bla bla..." Yeah, right! So, I have made quite a decision. I found out from friends and family, that they are quite a high demand of Quantity Surveyor in Australia. Yeah, I know. The other part of the world. I've heard about it before, but I was reluctant to actually have a look on it, since I thought I might want to finish up with college.

But then again, after doing a bit of calculation ... basically, I have been spending money for food, rent and other expenses (even though it has been done, 'stingy-ly, <--- I don't think that is even a word... but what I meant is, like I don't really spend like how I spent it before when I still have my job, shop happily...), there is no topping up of the money at all! I mean, all the money has become more and more less... and this is not good at all! I mean, what is the point I am staying here in Dublin, but then again, I have to live poorly? And only have a class once a week? Not a win-win situation at all. In fact, I think it is a lost-lost and more lost!

So, I applied few jobs in Australia. Just did few minutes ago. I think that is it. I just made the decision of applying them. Before, I just had a thought of applying them, but I hesitate due to some reasons. But now, looking at myself drowning through the stream.... better off I do something with it, before I drown more deeply and die? :)

So I did! And no one knows this decision of mine at all. No one. (I mean, friends or family - but they will if they read my post, obviously! Oh, and my dearest boyfriend too. He doesn't know this at all. Just me and only me).

And, if I got any calls or emails regarding the application, or even if I am lucky enough to get an interview, and got any job from this application, I am definitely going to do it! I mean, for an obvious reason, if I got the job, it is meant for me to apply for the job then. It has been written in my path of life, and if that what it takes for me to keep on living my life, so be it. Then, only I will be telling all my family members, friends and obviously my boyfriend. You probably wondering by now, what would happen between me and him? Well, that is a tough one. I don't know. I really don't know, but what I know for sure, I have to keep on living. Keep on surviving. Before you have to love someone, you have to actually have the heart to love yourself first before anyone else... So, that is what I am doing.

If we are meant to be together, then we will be. But looking at us at the moment, I really can't tell. So, this is my sacrification towards my love life for my life. (uhuh, it does sounds weird now, haha...). Well, hope you got the main thing I intended to say. Ah well...

So, talk to you guys soon, and wish me loads of luck! Ta.