Speaking of Luck

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I am at home. Sitting. Watching tv. Being a couch potato. While listening to awesome tracks.
All in one.

I feel so tired. Tired, and so tired I am. One more day to go to work, then as usuals, my weekends off. There is something different with this weekend tho'. It is more like, a 'Christmas' like to me.
We are going to celebrate Syawal, this weekend. More like 'Christmas'. As I said earlier.

For the second year, of my life, celebrating it without my family. Sad? I don't really realized that, to be honest. Nano. I don't know.

Supposedly, everyone will be with their family. Celebrating, and having loads of fun. But me, I am here. All alone, for the second year, in my entire life.

Ahh... no worries. I will be okay.

Oh, despite of feeling sad and things like that, for this Syawal thingy... I was, I repeat that... I was supposed to be happy. Because I was supposed to go to this Luciano thingy. A DJ, playing in Dublin... tomorrow night. At least, it will make it up for the sad part, of not being near to my family. But then again, yesterday's text received, I really don't feel like doing anything.

Even now, I feel like not doing anything. Everything is so so wrong.

Bad lucks all week. Sigh.

Text Tantrum

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I was in the office today. Back to my little workstation. New place. Was quiet.

Everything was like the usuals. Basically every single little thing as it was, like any normal other day for me until something stabbed me, (imaginarily), in the afternoon!

How would you feel, when someone doesn't really understand what you are saying? Like, you are telling him that the sky is blue, but he, on the other hand was telling you that the TV is on? How peculliar is that? *rolling eyes*

And, the fact that this particular sentence was said to me, I cried... again!

"go... do whatever you want!!"

How can this particular person said the things to me? Like, how dirt am I to him, now? Unbelievable. But that is the fact, in fact, obtained... today. So unbelievable!

And, that is one thing, why, and always be the reason why I don't really fancy texting, compared to phone calls. I received that thru' text, after what I texted earlier on!

And, my oh my... there goes the man I like. Off the peak of life, off the cliff... *jumping off the cliff, periodically*

One thing that really annoys me today, texting! How I wish it could be far more simpler, for him to understand what I really meant, instead of things (I wonder what he really thought, might be something far off from the real meaning... obviously!) that he now thought of!

How bizzare to acknowledge that, things said to be misunderstood could definitely bring you straight to huge disastrous event!

How I wish life would be simpler, and world would be a better place to live...
How I really wish...

Detox Day Out?

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Here are the pics for the Detox Day Out with my lovely, butterfly!! Love you loads, butterfly!! Thanks for always be there for me!! *wink*

More cakes and cakes and lattes and cappucinos... Nyummmssss!!

Doodles Days

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Many, many days of silent updates from me. I have been so busy with my submission, and other few things... alas, now I have the time to update! Yayyy! *smile*

Well, today I'm home. No office for me. I had a terrible period pain that one can ever imagined! How would that possibly be? Impossible!! I was crying the whole morning on bed, holding my tummy so hard, that somehow it seems that can possibly burst! Outrageous, I supposed! *still am in pain*

So many things happened in these past few days of my absentice from the blog. Really!! Like, unbelievable things to ever been consumed to your tiny mind too!!

I shifted place in the office. To another place. Not another workplace. Just another place, err... maybe best called it as workstation? Yeah. More like it! *smile again* 
A good new place to be at, but less people to talk to. I guess it is good for my working environment eh? What do you think? Hope so!

And, my weekends? It was okay. We went out to Frazers, the usuals, for Friday nite. Quite okay... My friend was playing, as the introduction DJ that night. Tommy. I, personally, kind of like the music he played. I think, it's kind of cute, in a way. *wink* The music. Yeah, I can't really describe how the hell the cute means, but you know when you listened to it. True!

My love-life? Do I have one? I have no idea. If there is, I might say that, it is more or less, there... I don't even know what is going on with it. Like, the person that I like, truly like at this moment, having a big, huge, gigantic crush on, is there... but, he is just there. And, me? I am here. And the feeling inside? It is there too. So, I guess I have a love-life, just that I don't know what's going on with it. As my 'little' butterfly friend, (now, officially, my best friend), told me, let's just see what happen soon. Let it go with the flow of life, we have in our
everyday life. I guess that's better!

(But, I do really like this person! Yeah, him and the butterfly!!!) *twirl and wink*

So, there goes the story of what basically happened in my life for these past few of my absentice days. *wink*

Oh, by the way, we had a Sunday Detox Day Out, last Sunday. It was awesome. We had cakes. Chocolate cakes, mind you?! And huge cookies, with cups and glasses of capucinno and latte! Fabulous! Brilliant in fact!! And 5 hours spending time outside the coffee shop called LEON, it was superb! There was me, Butterfly, Gladys (sorry if it is wrong spelled), and Anna. I thought of doing it again next Sunday, as a must-do-event for each Sunday! We'll see!

Okay, too much to tell now. I'm off to find some food, again!! (to eat and eat and eat!)

I hate PMS!! I hate PMS with the cravings for chocolates, and food, basically all food!! *grumble*

I'll drop in more stuff to spill in soon! 'till then, kisses! *wink, twirl and plant a kiss on the air*

Another Day?

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Morning blues. That is what I get whenever Monday peek-a-boos' in the weekdays life of mine. The usuals. Work, and more work in the office. Submission is near the corner. So, more and more things to be completed.

That's one thing about Monday. To get on to the job you're on to, left behind since Friday. To gather it up, pile it all together and to try remember where it was left behind. Torturing, sometimes.

Well, there is something new today, though.I had a fight. Not that big fight that people usually do have. And the fight is with someone, which is I thought is so 
impossible for me to have a fight with. At least, I don't ever have an imagination of having a fight with. Sigh.

It is not, a fight that leads you to feel burns, and angry inside. Instead, the fight made me feel sad and horrible inside. It is a disaster. Totally am!

It is about meeting me, and not meeting me. Wanting to see me and not wanting to see me.

How would you ever felt, when a person, whom you really, really like... telling you that he/she will be meeting you soon, and at the very end of time, he/she cancelled it? And that kind of situation repeated, over and over again? How would you feel? Oh, and plus... it happened on Monday?

I was too devastated. The most used word of the month, "another day...".

It is so horrifyingly, horrible! After for so many times, I freaked out! I screamed my lungs out, I cried (not that the person notice any of those, anyway... phew!), and I am through.

I told this person, "...it's okay. Nevermind. Just forget it! Like, just forget it!!".

At last, I blurted it out. Hung up. And, of course... like in any other chick flicks movie, the girl cried. I cried. Not that I am too sad with the situation. But, I was too angry with the fact that the word "another day", singing in my ear-drum! Like, "shhhhh!!!"

How would it turn out to be? My mobile, singing the tunes lala laa laa la laaaaa... someone's calling me. I ignored. And, more sounds. Ignored again. And more and more and more.... Ignored.

How would it turn out to be, then? I don't know!

When Sanity Takes Control

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It's already Sunday! Too many things, unbelievably things happened this week! Which, is too many to consumed, in the brain of mine. Little tiny brain of mine.

Luckily, am back to work tomorrow. For the first time, I am so eager to go to work tomorrow to finish up my work. My long-time-consuming work, which was supposed to be done last week. At last, back to my sane mind again. Phew!

This many, many things, somehow made me think. That there are few people in this world gifted with lack of sanity and capable mind, the mind of sane human to actually think what is right and what's NOT! Luckily, I am the other group of people, the sane ones! At least, I think I don't do stupid things to annoy people and crack their brains of their heads!

It will be a long day at work tomorrow and the day after, and after and after, until the next weekend. But, I think I can cope with one hell of a week, to wait for the next satisfyingly (hopefully) weekends!

So, 'till I am back tomorrow with few crappy stuff to write in about my topsy turvy life, I will put a dot to this entry, at this very second.

Good nite, and kisses for now! Ciao, ciao! *wink*

How Rude A Man Can Be?

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It's unbelievable!

A friend, of a friend... can actually asked me to have a night stand with him?! With the fact that I am no longer have a boyfriend right now. Too unbelievable! I don't even know him, like know him, know him!

I am still pissed! The fact that he had the courage to ask me! Horrifyingly hopeless, and honestly directing it to only on, but not two... one simple WORD, rudeness! In other ways, showing the sign, saying that I am such a cheap girl that can simply be tolerated as a one night stand chance!

Oh, by the way, the 'proposal' is actually thru text! Phone text message! Just like how I was dumped! How ironic... *rolling eyes* (oh, and he was in the living room, where Iwas at that moment!)

I replied, telling him to buzz off, like there will not even be an idea to popped in, no matter what. Simple reason, he is him! No way, jose! And, he even got the gigantic courage, texting back and asking me, does he really don't even have any chances? (How rude can a man be?)

I am too pissed off! I shoved him off, small pang on my face (imagining it),  I feel like I want to cry! So much! And this is too much, to handle! I asked him to stop doing what he's doing or else I will tell his friend, which is my friend, about all these! And, he tend to reply, again, saying that he is so sorry about what he said, bla bla bla, he got over the line, bla bla bla, and he should respect me, after this. Like, in simple English word, he don't even has respect on me, myself at all before?! It's like, I am really like a cheapo chicka on street to him, like at least that is what meant by what he said?! It's so shitty! Truly am! And I hate this feeling, 'coz I will never got to see him as before, and it will be obviously different view now. And, one more 'item' in my HATE jar! Sigh.

Popped up news, I went out last nite! Was awesome, but that's another different story to tell the tale. Not tonight. Too much to consumed, my brain, I mean, and I guess it might be in some other time, perhaps?

Oh, and my submission, Wednesday I think! You go, girl! *cheering to myself with loads of HOPE*

Bloopp, Blooppp...

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Days passed quickly, as ever! It's already Thursday, and it is Friday tomorrow? *rolling eyes*

It's random, to have days to buzz thru your life, unexpectedly speeding!

I had my days in the office, horrifyingly. My work, it hasn't finished yet. It just can't be done by this week. No way! I told my boss, and he agreed and so the dateline has been extended, again! To... the worst would be next Friday! Phew!! *smile* (At least I will have those things check, thoroughly before it should be sent to anyone! Lucky me!)

Without even realizing, I have not been posting anything since last Monday...? I guess that really shows how busy I was in the office. From the office, went back home, eat and squashed myself on the bed! Deep sleep, woke up, showered, put clothes on, walked to office. Routine, as it is. But with pile of work in-line! Sigh. Somehow, I just realized that, being so stressed about work, too much things to think about, to do, it actually increased my eating habits. I do eat loads, I mean loads!

I read it somewhere, stress can actually burnt your calories off you, that's why most of the times you feel like, "God! I am so hungry!", then off you bite more snacks and snacks and more snacks!

However, I am happy, and so am relieved! Weekends is on its way, and I am truly happy to at least, get off the work for sometimes! Yayyyy!

I'm off to sleep now. Too tired to write more things. One thing for sure, am so glad tomorrow's Friday! Yayyy for me, for tomorrow and for all of us!

Yayyy! *twirl*

Weirdo Me?

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Tag game to play from a happy-minded friend from California, United States. Her name is errr... BabyJet. *double wink*

Instruction:-

Each player of this game starts with 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don’t forget to leave a comment that says you are tagged in their comments and tell them to read your blog.

Here are 6 weird things about me...

1. I love to put my phone on silent without vibration on, so that once in a while, when I looked up my phone, there will be a missed call/s or text/s received that can actually put me to smile... (but, most of the times, it will still be nothing on the screen that at the end of the day, put me in horrible mode! *sigh*

2.   In all the party nights I had, I always dancing all night long, like really dancing non-stop, and dance and dance until at the very end of the party time, that ended up with me curled on the bed for the one whole day of the very next day! *giggles*

3.   I am extremely persistent on the things I want. Like, I can actually woke up from my deep sleep, and get the things I want at the very minute, without even thinking, and no one can actually stop me from doing the things that I want, right at the very minute! (My tongue piercing is one of the latest example! I woke up one Saturday morning, showered, and off to city centre, alone, to get my tongue pierced! Speaking of persistency!) *rolling eyes*

4.   Whenever I go to a fast food restaurant, I wouldn't even dare to order a gassy drinks, like Coca Cola, Sprite or anything alike. If I have one of those drinks, I'll be bloated like a whale and I am surely gonna curse myself for having the drinks earlier. I am just to not-related to this kind of drink! Somehow, I think I am super-weird. Who doesn't drink gassy drink? Unbelievable!

5.   No matter what the seasons are; winter, spring, summer, autumn... I will definitely have my socks on whenever I'm off to hit the sack! I need my socks, whenever I want to have my winky nites! (sleeping)

6.   When a person/people wants me to eat their food, their cookings, or even when I have to eat in a restaurant, I would want to have a 'beautifully presented' food (especially vegetables dish), then only I will eat them. I just could not resist myself to eat those slimy, hideous looking meal put on a plate. Somehow, I keep on wondering, what would it be like to put a horrible looking meal into your tummy! Yikes! Fussy? To food, of course I am particular about that! *triple wink*

That is all about myself! Here are the people I'm tagging to this game! Dadadddadaaa....

• LINA
  
• FAIRY
• ZURA
• ADRIAN
• MIKE
• SUZANNE

Have fun with the tag game! Tata & cheers!! *twirl*

Weekends Madness

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It's Sunday. Night. I had long sleep throughout the day. Was a hectic night for me since Friday night to Saturday night. It was awesome though.

I went out, yes. I did. On Friday. A bit late to go out, supposedly. At 1.30am, I leave the house. I went to a club, with my fella friends. Was good. Had a non-stop party, even in Saturday morning, in a club called White Horse (open from 7am to 1pm). Madness!

Party again until 5pm and felt asleep. Deep sleep on a couch until 9pm. Don't even realized anything, until it's time to go back home. *giggles*

It turned out to be a good weekends, after all! But, despite of all the good things, am still confused with my love-life. Err... if there is any. At one time, I thought that I have one, but on the other hand I thought I have none. I don't know. I don't even want to know what's there and what's not.

What I am looking forward now, is the trip to Frankfurt for one weekend, to party! It will be soon in November! Can't wait for that. That would be a weekend-madness! Truly!!

All of us are looking forward for that trip, surely. I bet it would be loads of madness. Truly, truly madness! What can I do? The fare-tickets are so cheap! Only €30 for return ticket! Like, soooo cheap! Yayyy!!

A month or so to go! I'll be looking for that. Would be far more exciting that what we've done in here, Dublin! I'll update on that when we buy the tickets! And, i'll let you know the details as well!

Now, really got to get some winky rest. Some sleep for more hectic days in the office for this week! Then, I'm through. I have submission this Friday, then off to party again next weekend! Yayyy!! I have to complete my job no matter what, this Friday. Sigh. I can do that. I am surely can! *wink*

Good nite!