Runaway Bride

It's Tuesday. I got few letters from college, noticing me when I have to come to college for registration, how much and stuff like that. I am quite excited though. *wink*

Even though it was a busy day in the office today, I feel a bit different. I feel that I am contented! I mean, I had a dinner last night with my friend, Fairy. She is the only girl here, from my country who is close to me. Okay, a bit off the statement. I do have few more. *giggles* I mean, this girl is actually one of the girls that I have met when I was here. I hope you get what I mean.

Anyway, it has been a good moment. I mean, I haven't seen her for quite sometimes now. Especially, when I was too attached with Mr. Jerk. So, in a way, I do feel nice. And I made pasta. Salmon creme pasta. It was nice, though.

We had dinner and talk for hours. It has been ages since I did that before! Seriously. And worst, I kind of miss the old me!

I guess with Mr. Jerk not being around, there are few good things happened to me. That soon made me wonder, is it meant to be this way then? Perhaps, when he is gone, it is better not just for him, but maybe for me too? It never stops me from having this thought. Maybe this is what I want, like what it was supposed to be?

More stuff! I will be having another date again tomorrow. No, no. Not a new guy. It is the guy that I met few days back. The Irish! *wink* To be honest, I don't know what I am doing though. I mean, I like this guy. He is kind of nice. Even my friends told me so. But then again, knowing me with my fickle minded, thinking too much, paranoia everywhere... it just annoyed me too much!

I mean, whenever he started to be nice, and narrow down the gap between us, I feel like I have to run. Run, run away from him. Seriously. But then, when I thought that he is a bit reluctant or keeping the distance, I love to loathing near. I mean, seriously... It just drives me nuts!

Have you ever watched Runaway Bride? I feel like one now. I mean, I am too afraid. Say, if he likes me, I do want him too. But then, naturally... I would run! Trust me on that. I guess we will see what happened tomorrow though.

He has his birthday as well. I mean, he will be 27 this Friday, and he would like to see me for a while. But he said, it's okay if I am busy. I mean, it is his birthday, why would he care if I am busy or not? God. I don't know.

I guess we just see what happens then. Wish me luck.

Good night.

P/S: Oh, by the way... I think he is kinda cute. He is not skinny, that's for sure. :)