What Am I Made Of?

Hey there. Just came back from the second date. Okay, the movie was nice. Everything is nice, just that I have a new conclusion. I think I do have a problem. I won't be successful, not at all. Naa...ah!
I mean, I won't be successful in terms of love life. Not a chance!

I think he likes me now. I really think so. And, it's not like I am being mean or anything, but I think whenever I know that a guy is interested in me, I would run. Simply run! And, that means... no relationship at all!

Gosh! What have I gotten myself into? I am spoiling myself though, that is more like it. I should be very happy that a guy is falling for me, but I react the other way round? Why is that supposed to happen?

I think that is it. I mean, I can't see this guy anymore. That is it. I can't. Because, if I do... I am lying to myself. Pretending to be okay but then I am not in the inside. He is such a nice guy, and I am not worth it a try. I think so.

Was too funny in the movie, he keeps on looking at me. I mean, staring!!! What is that???? God! And I keep having a thought of, I can do this. I can try to like him. He is such a nice guy. I keep on repeat this on my mind, but alas... no chance. Not a chance!

I am a bit*h, I think. That is what I am. I am so useless. I can't do what normal girls usually do. Have a normal life, with a normal boyfriend on their side. No. I just can't. Then, I know that I am not normal. *giggles* I know I shouldn't be laughing about this, but I think it is funny. Furthermore, I think I am kind of funny! More like an idiot!

I am really sorry, but I just can't. What am I made of? How I wonder!

P/S: When I got home, trying to figure out why this is all happening like this... I got a text from Mr. Jerk. Why on earth should he appear now? After so long he has been so quiet? And why, would he turned up right in the middle of me having a huge, horrible decision to think about? Does this mean anything????? Simply annoying!