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Showing posts with label job searching. Show all posts
Showing posts with label job searching. Show all posts

Friday, May 25, 2012

What's It Worth?


Hello, people. It has been a while since I last posted, but alas... even though it is, I am still at my current status of being unemployed. Things have been tough. Or was it because, I am being over-dramatic in choosing the right job specification?

I mean, we have to choose correctly in order to settle in with the best working environment and not to mention, the appropriate pay altogether? How would it be possibly right to be in a position where you ought to work like there is no tomorrow but only earning, err.. pennies?

Since I have officially becomes 'Mom's maid' as I am the one who is preparing dinner, well... I must say, I have the excellent skills that one could never imagined! On the other hand, I think I have been putting up weight and that is all mainly because I have been cooking yummy, deliciously, unbeatable home-cooked cuisine for the past month and a half! *grins*

I suppose, say, if the footballers are out of footballs for their game in World Cup that is coming soon, then they are welcome to use me as one of the ball! See. I have become rounder, closer to a portrait of a football!

I have entirely giving up in looking for a job, at least for this past two days. While I was browsing through the jobs offered; let it be in the newspapers or even in the jobseekers website, it is all then filtered to this one simple question; what am I looking for in a job, really? Up to this point, I don't even recognize anymore of who I wanted to be, as in what kind of job am I dying to do anymore. That is probably the biggest challenge that I have to date. I don't even know what I want to do!

I mean, yeah. I know I was a Quantity Surveyor in a consultancy firms all these while. But do I really want to continue working in a consultancy line, like until death do us apart? I would be delighted to be offered to work in an oil and gas stream, that would be awesome and the thought of me being in that industry, already gives me a mini-orgasm, but then again... will I be qualified and worthwhile for them?

See. I have been to an oil and gas industry's interviews, twice! The first one, well... let's just say, I failed miserably. It was a 45-minutes phone interview, and it was the shittiest day of my life not knowing what else to talk about while the HR executive on the other line was giving me silent responses everytime I answered his God-knows-what-sorts of questions!

For the second interview, luckily it was a face to face interview. There were three panels altogether and at least, this is great as I can see if they smirked or frown if I did not answer them correctly! It went alright, I must say and it lasted for about an hour. I was having the best of my time blabbering and chatting away things I know would interest them, work-wise. Unfortunately, they did not come back to me and it has been a week and two days when they were saying that they will let me know in a week time. Or less. I have queried them by email but sadly, they don't even bother to reply me at all! I mean, how difficult for them to just send me an email and let me know whether they are processing it, I did not get the job or they will proceed my application for the second interview? At least, reply and let me know what is going on! Or maybe, I was not worth their time at all and therefore, they decided to just ignore me like a dead plant in a pot? This is so heart-crushing for me, most definitely!

So, there you go. This is why I am not that happy for these past few days. In fact, I am still not happy now. Well, there goes my extremely lengthy post for this week! *grins*

Take care and have a nice day! xxx 

Saturday, March 28, 2009

A Twirling Update!


Hey ya... I am back here. Again.

It is Friday night, but I am sitting at home, and trying to get my head to absorb all the notes from college! Somehow, I got the goosebumps early enough this time! Usually, I will only have this kind of thing when it is nearly the time for the exam! :)

Probably, it is the aging! Growing old makes you feel you need more than enough time to study! Gosh!

Okay, here's the newsflash! I am still out of job. Still no joy, and let's see... it is already been officially 7 weeks, that I have been out of job. And, no joy ever since. How could a person be comfortable enough to stay at home and do nothing, in full of triumph? There are people like that, and I am saying this based on what I saw. And it is true. There are a flock of people who actually doing this thing for living! Getting the money from the government (since the government is being so nice in terms of giving out money to people....), and just loathing and basically, DO NOTHING! How could that be so enjoyable? No idea!

As in for me, it nearly break me into pieces. I need to see people!!! Being cocooned in your own life, without any leads to anywhere... trust me, it's sickening! If it was for a week or two, then it is fine. But, to have it continuously happened, well... it is hell!

Love life? Hmm... this is a tricky one. I think, the thing that I had been thinking before, was so right! I think I am paranoid. Know why? Because now I am doubting is he really into me. I know that he is being nice and everything to me, but there are times when I actually doubt it. Like, how could a man possibly stand with me, in a relationship for so long? I am well known for my unsuccessful relationship for years! Therefore, that what makes me a bit paranoid when it comes to a smooth sailing relationship. Well, sometimes, things that he said... just makes me wonder. Like, is he really into me?

The thing is, people often said that, when it is right, there will be no doubt about it at all. But, why do I have this doubtful things in my mind, as days passed by? Would that technically is an omen telling me that it is going to end soon? Or is there any better ways to overcome this silly thought? By ignoring everything that you think, and just ... just don't think? At all? Is that it? Is that the key to all the successful women out day with their happy, blessed relationship? Yes?

Or probably the fact that I actually don't really see where are we going. To be honest, I don't really see where we are in a year time. Not even a year... say, in two months time. Is this one of the symptoms, when you are actually dating a younger guy? It is more of a spontaneous relationship, rather than a well planned kind?

With the situation of me not having a job, and moving from an exclusive one bed apartment to a mews, sharing with two other housemates... (Oh yeah, forgot to mention. I moved to a house in a street called, Rxxxxxxx Mews, and I have checked the dictionary that mews mean - street lined with buildings that were originally private stables but have been remodeled as dwellings! Almost like, I am a horse in a stable! Haha...) I feel more insecure about my relationship. Don't ask me why but I just think that those two reason did affect my thoughts on my relationship. The security in this relationship, just seems to run down. I mean, he can basically leave me on a stake, if he wants to. If he doesn't really want me anymore... and at the end, I will be so hopeless trying to reach for the branch before I fell off the cliff! Oh, how dramatic! Haha...

Let's just hope this is just one of the bad vibes that always visit me once in a month! Let's just really hope that is the reason! Please God! :)

Well, that is it for today. I'm feeling a bit starving already. Maybe, I should make a tuna sandwich for my dinner? Let's see... Okay, talk to you guys soon! Good night, and have a good weekend! :)

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Settled?


Hey all! I am all done. Set and done. No more finding a house, as I already did. :)

Now it will be only thing on my mind. Finding a job. Any job would do. As long I am not stucked at home, and do nothing. It bores me to death! I can't live like that anymore... It's torturing!!!

I have finished unpacking all my stuff, and now I am ready to find a job! :) As if I haven't done any of that. I even did try to find a job here and there, just that I have no such luck, as yet! Hopefully, soon enough...

Oh, and one more thing. I am already starting to study bits and pieces for my college. I have my final exam in the middle of May, and I have 4 subjects to pass. To be honest, I don't want to just pass, I want a distinction! :) Haha... I have to. But the subjects are wrecking my head! I have construction law, construction economics, financial management (with all the numbers - sort of like an accounting paper!!) and cost and value management (this is okay, since this is basically what I do in my job - my ex job!). It looks like probably, only a paper to get a distinction! I want the whole lot! :)

I am sitting here in my room, flipping through my law notes, trying to get all the cases into my head!! It's a mess!

Wish me luck, and 'till then I will catch up with you guys soon enough. Thanks to those who never fail to vote me. I will try to do my best, voting you guys! Good night! xxx
 

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