What Can I Write On Hedonism?

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Hey all.

It's a group assignment and we have agreed to do this paper on Hedonism. Truthfully, genuinely, honestly... I have not been exposed to this eight letter words, H-E-D-O-N-I-S-M up until the gang decided to proceed with this topic. How interesting!

And to the betterment of my understanding (I suppose?), I was given the task to complete the essay on 'what is hedonism' and 'where does it originated from?' How refreshing!

And after few hours spent on the web, I have come across many philosophical websites and articles, and each of the confusing words and sentences are now boggling in my head! Oh, and I have come across this photo while searching on Hedonism online! *grins*

Con­tem­por­ary hedon­ism (Photo by Ametxa via Flickr)

 via Peter Prevos

Hedonism it is. Oh dear.

News!!!

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It has been a while since I blog. :)

But, here I am now.

I am currently in Kuantan, Pahang. In MS Garden Hotel - in a room. I came in yesterday with mom. She has a meeting somewhere near and decided that I should tag along so that it will be some sort of a little road trip since I am not doing anything much if I stayed at home. So, here I am.

She is already downstairs in the conference room (I suppose?) for a very serious meeting and I am in the room, typing. :) It was a good trip. We had McDonald's on the way here yesterday afternoon and we went shopping for office attire for the interview, last night in Parkson nearby. (Parkson - shopping mall). And we went down for breakfast earlier this morning.

Oh, speaking of interview - yes. I got another job interview tomorrow at 5pm. I had one last week but apparently it was a Contractor's firm and I rather choose a consultant so that I can pursue my professional course - it is a long story and I don't intend to bore you with it. ;) Anyway, wish me luck!!

Oh, there is another news!!! I got my results! (Have I told you about this yet? I don't think so). Well, I got the results last Tuesday, if I'm not mistaken. Sadly, I didn't get first class. :( But, I managed to get Second Class Upper - which is called 2.1, I believe? I am not so familiar with the Ireland's marking scheme (which is similar to UK), but I think it is not too bad! ;)

Hmm.. a very lengthy post today. I think that is all for today. I will update you soon on my whereabouts and things I've done. And also how my interview will be tomorrow. Don't forget to wish me luck! I really need it. I think I really want to get a job in that office! I want, I want! ;)

Speak soon people. Have a lovely day! xxx

Running Out Of Time

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Another quick post. These days, it seems like I have not enough time even for myself. :( Tough life.

Anyway, started Semester 2 in college yesterday. Got results of past exams plus another one which was in December, but I didn't have any post about it. Surprisingly, I am doing well! Yayyy for me! :)


Here is the details:-

Undergraduate Course work

CRN	Module	Module Title	Final Grade	Comment	Credits
18166	RECE4713	Cost and Value Management 2	80		10.000
18165	RECE4811	Tender Documentation 2	66		10.000

Well, supposed to do better than 66 for that tender documentation, but it is hard especially when it's not solely based on the exam but accumulate with project. :( Ah well, but I am still happy about it. I really am. :)

But, it is just so wrong to always be happy and relaxed all the time. So, here is the other newsflash! Went to college, got two new subjects, and... we got assignment assigned on the first day of school!! For both of the subjects. And worst... submission date would be the same date! 26th March 2010. Amazing, is it NOT?!

Thesis submission - 15th April 2010 (has been changed from 12th April).
Why it is always so difficult for me? :(

Talk soon! xxx

P/S: Sorry for not visiting any of your blogs lately, but I just don't have enough time. :( Also, another little newsflash. Asked for extra hours from my manager and trainee manager; and they are so helpful!! :) Got more extra hours! :) So, more working time, college work, working time, thesis work, etc. I will die. x

The Good & The Bad?

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Quick post.

GOOD NEWS
Mama has been so generous, and kind, and loving, and amazing, and etc. as she paid for my going home ticket! :) Yup! Ticket bought. And it will be on the 2nd June 2010. I'll be leaving Dublin. For real. For good. After 4 years... Hmm, so it's about 121 days to go (4 months, approximately). *star jump*

BAD NEWS
Just got a letter from welfare office (since I was on a a casual payment before - working part time, as I paid taxes before, they allowed me to get benefits of the dole, but not fully. Only based on the days that I am not working). But, unfortunately the letter is informing me that my payment is exhausted last week. So, I am not entitled to get anymore from them. What a news!! Since I am only working part time (on a minimum wage), and without this casual payments involved anymore... I will be dead!! I will be... definitely!!

I have a rent, food, train ticket to pay. This is really hard!! A bad news on the first day of February, right after the day I was so happy when Mummy bought me the ticket!! Sigh.

First, I might ask the shop if I can work extra hours. But, at the same time I have my thesis submission in April! No. I know. I have to work. I will ask about the extra hours. Maybe I could even work on Saturday? I need the money. Yes. I think that would be my first step.

If not, maybe find a second job. Urghh... this is hard. Can't think right now. I am such a big mess! Well, will keep you posted. Until then. x

Library Fuss

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Hey. Late night post! I intend to do a bit of reading, but after a really nice hot shower, I became so lazy. Haha...

Today, I was so in a giddy mode. I was at work early in the morning, and I feel like I was injected with a happy-liquid-moment-medication! It was fun at work. It was like in a la la la land! Then, (to my surprise as well!), right after work I went straight to college, to the library to get all the related books for my thesis. Before all the books in the library to be snatched away by others!! I don't really want to risk that, do I? ;)

I spent about an hour a half over there, just to realized that there were so many guys in my college! It was like, swarming with many many life-being called, boys! I never realized this before until when I was in the library, all spots, basically all chairs, are occupied with this creature! Only few places where you can see long hair and pink clothes, or maybe faces with make ups and curled lashes. :) The rest are all boys! (Note - not that I was amazed that I forgot the main reason I was there! Haha...).

In fact, I was literally, SCARED! I was cautious. Every time I walked past the book shelves holding my little notebook with the list of books I required, there will be eyes... following my pace. It was horrifying. I thought I was imagining things, (as I am very aware of my super-power!! ;) ) but this time, I know I wasn't because I can in fact heard a conversation being paused! PAUSED. And the eyes...!!! It's horrifying!! Honestly.

But then again, I was from work. Perhaps the smells that is on me, (since I work in LUSH, so you might know how it is if there's LUSH anywhere near you! :) ) lingering around when I walked passed them! ;) Haha... Probably.

Okay. That's it for tonight I think. I'm so tired. Oh, by the way... I got home with 4 huge books with me! :)

So, I guess, speak soon? ;) Good night! *twirl*

Well, Is That It?

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Hello!

Okay, here's few updates. Still no job. But, did I tell you guys that I am doing a volunteering job in a charity shop that support all the disabled people in Ireland? It is called Enable Ireland. We sell all sort of stuff that has been donated and use the money to support the disabled.

Well, I didn't get any pay for it, but then again... at least I can see people. That's why I am doing it. I just went in today, and will be tomorrow and Friday too. It's kind of fun though.

Anyway, yeah... what I was talking about before? Oh yeah, newsflash. Job, still nothing. Me, trying to keep myself busy to not becoming insane of not having a thing to do. Love life? I supposed it is okay, but I don't really know and I don't want to mess my head and thinking about all sorts of disappointing stuff, just let it flow and see how it goes. No comment on that one.

Study? Yeah, I have exams on the second week of May, and I don't really know how is it going to be. It's quite scary, really. Like, then what? I have my sixth year soon starting September, but do I really have to ask my mom for the fees? If I don't get any job? Such a pain, isn't it? Might just ended it right away, and go where? I can't believe this is how its going to be. Is it going to end just like that, me here in Dublin? It is so not meant to be that way, isn't it? Like, should I actually give it up already? No idea.

Uhuh, things are just getting so out of hand. Rent to pay, bills and expenses... and without job it just make it much more worst! We'll see...

Good night! xxx

Settled?

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Hey all! I am all done. Set and done. No more finding a house, as I already did. :)

Now it will be only thing on my mind. Finding a job. Any job would do. As long I am not stucked at home, and do nothing. It bores me to death! I can't live like that anymore... It's torturing!!!

I have finished unpacking all my stuff, and now I am ready to find a job! :) As if I haven't done any of that. I even did try to find a job here and there, just that I have no such luck, as yet! Hopefully, soon enough...

Oh, and one more thing. I am already starting to study bits and pieces for my college. I have my final exam in the middle of May, and I have 4 subjects to pass. To be honest, I don't want to just pass, I want a distinction! :) Haha... I have to. But the subjects are wrecking my head! I have construction law, construction economics, financial management (with all the numbers - sort of like an accounting paper!!) and cost and value management (this is okay, since this is basically what I do in my job - my ex job!). It looks like probably, only a paper to get a distinction! I want the whole lot! :)

I am sitting here in my room, flipping through my law notes, trying to get all the cases into my head!! It's a mess!

Wish me luck, and 'till then I will catch up with you guys soon enough. Thanks to those who never fail to vote me. I will try to do my best, voting you guys! Good night! xxx

A Simple Thing

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Hey there. It has been a normal weekend, was having a quiet weekend sort of. But few friends were over at my place last night for few drinks, and it wasn't successful to be a fully quiet weekend. But at least, I didn't go out and spend all the money for no reason!

Earlier on, a friend was coming over for a dinner and it was okay. But then, when few other people were coming, it just turned out to be strange. How could it be that when you want them to leave, they just won't leave? Such a pain in the ass! I learnt my lesson. I am definitely not going anywhere at all next weekend, and actually its a good thing too not to see some friends like these people!

I am not being selfish or what-so-ever. But then, they just ignored you, the fact that you want a quiet weekend, simply because they just don't know what to do for the weekends? How selfish you can be to actually not to tolerate with these kind of people?

I am not in a good condition as well. Not just the health, since winter seems to be peeking in my life lately. Been having cold and flu now and again. There is also a sad news at work as well. We had the staff review, but I haven't got mine yet as I was absent on Wednesday and was in college the whole day on Thursday. So, when I came in on Friday, no partners are available to do my review. Unfortunately, there is one staff who has been let go on Wednesday, and I just got the news on that Thursday. It has been bothering me ever since!

Heard that as well, there will be no Christmas bonus (I've been waiting for this, all year but with this new news, it just breaks me apart!), no pay raise and no overtime will be paid as well. I keep on having the thought that I might be the next one. And I have been thinking too, if it will be me the next one, I would definitely not going to stay here in Dublin, at all anymore. It would be the end for me in here. Definitely.

And about Mr. Nice Guy, I have told him the truth. I told him I can't go on with this. He is too nice, and I think I am being the odd shape in the pattern. I don't think we can make it and go through with it. I know, I know. What is my damn problem? You got yourself a good guy, and you just ditch him? I don't know what is wrong with me too! I think I am having this paranoia when there is someone out there reaching out for me. Adore me and like me a lot, would be a big turnover for me to go over and said NO. It's just a reflex mode of me. It's stupid. But, that is what I am having all the time.

Mr. Nice Guy take it nicely. And, we're all good now. He said, he was confused with me, and makes him want to know me more better! It's so strange that I meet this nice guy, isn't it? There must be something really really wrong somewhere. This couldn't be right! (That is always how my mind twirls when something like this happened! I'm being skeptical and in doubt).

So, here I am with too many things in my mind. As usual, but this time it is far more serious than before, obviously. I mean, how could it not be. It's about my life, my job to be specific!

I just hope that I will not be let go. At least not at this time. And with college, and boys... let the time tell the tale!

Wish me luck! :)