I am in tears. It can't just stop running throuhg my eyelids. I just can't stop this sad feeling burning inside. Somehow, I just realized that I am completely alone here. I have no one. And I am one useless goddess ever created in this whole wide world.
I ad a plan, of a birthday getaway sometimes in the middle of June. But just... just within a day, it all collapsed and scattered on the floor. No more happy and fun joyful birthday vacation, that I ever dreamed of.
Then, with that... comes the fact, that I am so alone in here. How hard is it to have someone who you can call a friend and a shoulder to cry on? How hard is it to not to be alone? How hard is it not to celebrate a year older, with the people that you love and love you back? It is not just a life-partner, a boyfriend or a crush, but a friend?
