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Tuesday, July 15, 2008

I Have Had Enough

It is Monday, again! *sigh*

But it has been a really good Monday for me, as I have stayed at home all weekends. That is the best bit of staying in, really.

Somehow, on this good Monday evening, I have a thought. A good thought, but somehow scary enough for me to admit the fact.

The thing is, I think what resolve around me these past few weeks is childishness! Completely beyond, I'd say.

Now, I have made my decision. If that it what it is, then it is. No more arguments, no more confrontations. I am completely fine with it. To argue about such things, to be longing for someone to actually accept the fact, that has been denied all the time, is completely hopeless. Would be obviously hopeless...more, if you're dealing with a person with a kid minded!

You wouldn't even received the truth. Not in a million years! You wouldn't even succeed in achieving such thing, with a person who is totally childish! So, where's the point?

I will definitely agree with whatever is made. With whatever I had now, and I wouldn't even care to ask a person to agree and admit the truth. If that is what it said, then it is. The fact is, I don't care anymore. The thing is, I am tired of all the bullshit... deja vu thingy, that makes my life completely in a misery state. It is going nowhere!

I need someone who can guide me, not someone who tear me into pieces because he/she is just being childish complete with a kid minded. It is absolutely leads to nowhere. And, that is not what I want. That is... in fact, a total bullshit?! *grins*

So now, even though it was supposed to be Monday, a day that I should and always trapped in blues and misery, somehow this Monday has got me back to my senses. I have decided. And I am keen to stick to my decision.

It's his choice. So, if he choose to be childish, then childish it is. And to me, means... that's it. I have had enough!

Somehow, I don't really care anymore. As... I have been treated like a maid. Used me like I have no soul. Nothing. Just a stupid, useless corpse. Sometimes, worst than a shit. So, there you go. I gave up.

I rest my case... And somehow, I am happy about it. It's just killing me all these while. And now, I am completely done. Finish. Dot.

5 twirls with baby:

Daddy Papersurfer on July 15, 2008 at 3:45 AM said...

Decisions are often difficult to make ......... gut instinct is usually a good marker .........

shle3pyb4by on July 15, 2008 at 3:56 AM said...

hi daddy!! that was quick! i just posted few mins ago, and while i'm reading it over again, spell-check (wink), then i saw your comment! kudos to you!

yeah, somehow... it triggers me badly. it has been too long. too long for me to compensate the pain. its absurd. if thats the choice, then let it be. i am not going to be argue, which spells completely CHILDISHNESS if i did. so, that was it. i'm done. and i'm through!! :)

somehow, quiet weekend does something good too, i think. :)


70steen on July 15, 2008 at 3:53 PM said...

Do what is best for you in the long term....... at least you have thought it out rationally and the events must be real and hard to make you feel this way

Onwards and upwards :-D

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wani ezryl * on July 16, 2008 at 7:00 PM said...

yah, dun ever let ppl treat u like a servant/maid/butler/wutever they call it.. lolx. we own our life and we deserve to live comfortably. keep the chin up! x]


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