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Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Tag Game

I am back to this tag game. :)

I was browsing through my couz's blog, and I stumbled upon this! She actually tagged me somewhere in January, and I have not been informed at all! *wani.... what do you have to say on this?* hahaha..

So, here I am, diligently obeyed with the game.

Here is the instruction:-
1. Take a recent picture of yourself or take a picture of yourself right NOW!
2. DON’T change your clothes, DON’T fix your hair.. just take a picture.
3. Post that picture with NO editing.
4. Post these instructions with the picture.
5. Tag 10 people to do this:

Therefore, here are the list of ten people who I tagged! Please, please and please... participate in the game! Would be fun!

1. Ammar - my brother!
2. Lina - my long lost friend!
3. DaddyP
4. 70steen
5. Fairy - please do this! It is an order! :)
6. Akma - do this too!
7. SylvieD
8. JohnC
9. LinkyLove
10. AdrianC

P/S: I was on my way to sleep... So, please ignore the messy-ness of the look and how normal and simple I look like! Haha...

Good night! xxx

Monday, March 30, 2009

An Ultimate Decision

Hi all! :)

Okay, so it is Monday. I used to hate it, sooooo badly. I mean, who likes Monday? Na'ah. Not really a good day, especially if you are working, and you have to pick up things you left on Friday. And, it is such a headache if you had a lovely weekend beforehand.

However, it is not bad anymore for me now. Instead, I am so much looking forward for Monday to come as Monday is the first day of the week, and I am hoping from the thousands of CVs I have distribute all week, would somehow earn me a phone call, requesting for me to come for a job interview! But then again, I am so hoping for it, that it has never come true! Not yet...

Well, after browsing through websites and tons of emails saying things like, "we have received your application, but we regret to inform you that you have not been shortlisted for the interview for the post... we wish you luck in your next future...bla bla bla..." Yeah, right! So, I have made quite a decision. I found out from friends and family, that they are quite a high demand of Quantity Surveyor in Australia. Yeah, I know. The other part of the world. I've heard about it before, but I was reluctant to actually have a look on it, since I thought I might want to finish up with college.

But then again, after doing a bit of calculation ... basically, I have been spending money for food, rent and other expenses (even though it has been done, 'stingy-ly, <--- I don't think that is even a word... but what I meant is, like I don't really spend like how I spent it before when I still have my job, shop happily...), there is no topping up of the money at all! I mean, all the money has become more and more less... and this is not good at all! I mean, what is the point I am staying here in Dublin, but then again, I have to live poorly? And only have a class once a week? Not a win-win situation at all. In fact, I think it is a lost-lost and more lost!

So, I applied few jobs in Australia. Just did few minutes ago. I think that is it. I just made the decision of applying them. Before, I just had a thought of applying them, but I hesitate due to some reasons. But now, looking at myself drowning through the stream.... better off I do something with it, before I drown more deeply and die? :)

So I did! And no one knows this decision of mine at all. No one. (I mean, friends or family - but they will if they read my post, obviously! Oh, and my dearest boyfriend too. He doesn't know this at all. Just me and only me).

And, if I got any calls or emails regarding the application, or even if I am lucky enough to get an interview, and got any job from this application, I am definitely going to do it! I mean, for an obvious reason, if I got the job, it is meant for me to apply for the job then. It has been written in my path of life, and if that what it takes for me to keep on living my life, so be it. Then, only I will be telling all my family members, friends and obviously my boyfriend. You probably wondering by now, what would happen between me and him? Well, that is a tough one. I don't know. I really don't know, but what I know for sure, I have to keep on living. Keep on surviving. Before you have to love someone, you have to actually have the heart to love yourself first before anyone else... So, that is what I am doing.

If we are meant to be together, then we will be. But looking at us at the moment, I really can't tell. So, this is my sacrification towards my love life for my life. (uhuh, it does sounds weird now, haha...). Well, hope you got the main thing I intended to say. Ah well...

So, talk to you guys soon, and wish me loads of luck! Ta.

Saturday, March 28, 2009

Who Wants To Go Out With Me?

It's Saturday, and I am sitting on my bed, thinking... what should I do today?

I wanted to go out, but I have no idea where to go. And with who. Only then I realized, "Bugger!! I don't have that many friends!!" How terrible that is? Super terrible.

Therefore, there is a question for today! "Who wants to go out with me?"

I really need to go out for a while, to get some air... (just hope that the weather is okay. haha...).

Talk later! :)

A Twirling Update!

Hey ya... I am back here. Again.

It is Friday night, but I am sitting at home, and trying to get my head to absorb all the notes from college! Somehow, I got the goosebumps early enough this time! Usually, I will only have this kind of thing when it is nearly the time for the exam! :)

Probably, it is the aging! Growing old makes you feel you need more than enough time to study! Gosh!

Okay, here's the newsflash! I am still out of job. Still no joy, and let's see... it is already been officially 7 weeks, that I have been out of job. And, no joy ever since. How could a person be comfortable enough to stay at home and do nothing, in full of triumph? There are people like that, and I am saying this based on what I saw. And it is true. There are a flock of people who actually doing this thing for living! Getting the money from the government (since the government is being so nice in terms of giving out money to people....), and just loathing and basically, DO NOTHING! How could that be so enjoyable? No idea!

As in for me, it nearly break me into pieces. I need to see people!!! Being cocooned in your own life, without any leads to anywhere... trust me, it's sickening! If it was for a week or two, then it is fine. But, to have it continuously happened, well... it is hell!

Love life? Hmm... this is a tricky one. I think, the thing that I had been thinking before, was so right! I think I am paranoid. Know why? Because now I am doubting is he really into me. I know that he is being nice and everything to me, but there are times when I actually doubt it. Like, how could a man possibly stand with me, in a relationship for so long? I am well known for my unsuccessful relationship for years! Therefore, that what makes me a bit paranoid when it comes to a smooth sailing relationship. Well, sometimes, things that he said... just makes me wonder. Like, is he really into me?

The thing is, people often said that, when it is right, there will be no doubt about it at all. But, why do I have this doubtful things in my mind, as days passed by? Would that technically is an omen telling me that it is going to end soon? Or is there any better ways to overcome this silly thought? By ignoring everything that you think, and just ... just don't think? At all? Is that it? Is that the key to all the successful women out day with their happy, blessed relationship? Yes?

Or probably the fact that I actually don't really see where are we going. To be honest, I don't really see where we are in a year time. Not even a year... say, in two months time. Is this one of the symptoms, when you are actually dating a younger guy? It is more of a spontaneous relationship, rather than a well planned kind?

With the situation of me not having a job, and moving from an exclusive one bed apartment to a mews, sharing with two other housemates... (Oh yeah, forgot to mention. I moved to a house in a street called, Rxxxxxxx Mews, and I have checked the dictionary that mews mean - street lined with buildings that were originally private stables but have been remodeled as dwellings! Almost like, I am a horse in a stable! Haha...) I feel more insecure about my relationship. Don't ask me why but I just think that those two reason did affect my thoughts on my relationship. The security in this relationship, just seems to run down. I mean, he can basically leave me on a stake, if he wants to. If he doesn't really want me anymore... and at the end, I will be so hopeless trying to reach for the branch before I fell off the cliff! Oh, how dramatic! Haha...

Let's just hope this is just one of the bad vibes that always visit me once in a month! Let's just really hope that is the reason! Please God! :)

Well, that is it for today. I'm feeling a bit starving already. Maybe, I should make a tuna sandwich for my dinner? Let's see... Okay, talk to you guys soon! Good night, and have a good weekend! :)

Tuesday, March 24, 2009


Hey all! I am all done. Set and done. No more finding a house, as I already did. :)

Now it will be only thing on my mind. Finding a job. Any job would do. As long I am not stucked at home, and do nothing. It bores me to death! I can't live like that anymore... It's torturing!!!

I have finished unpacking all my stuff, and now I am ready to find a job! :) As if I haven't done any of that. I even did try to find a job here and there, just that I have no such luck, as yet! Hopefully, soon enough...

Oh, and one more thing. I am already starting to study bits and pieces for my college. I have my final exam in the middle of May, and I have 4 subjects to pass. To be honest, I don't want to just pass, I want a distinction! :) Haha... I have to. But the subjects are wrecking my head! I have construction law, construction economics, financial management (with all the numbers - sort of like an accounting paper!!) and cost and value management (this is okay, since this is basically what I do in my job - my ex job!). It looks like probably, only a paper to get a distinction! I want the whole lot! :)

I am sitting here in my room, flipping through my law notes, trying to get all the cases into my head!! It's a mess!

Wish me luck, and 'till then I will catch up with you guys soon enough. Thanks to those who never fail to vote me. I will try to do my best, voting you guys! Good night! xxx

Sunday, March 15, 2009

Moving Out!

Pheww!! What a long pause from hitting the keyboard keys to jot down some crappy stuff in here. Well, I have been living in my little topsy turvy life since then. That is why.

I am moving out from my special lair today, 15th march 2009. And worst, I will be living with two strangers whom I know nothing about. It will be such hurdles for me, for few weeks I think. I mean, I have been living on my own for so long now, and to cope up with housemates, will be a bit hard. Alas, I have no other ways... I am still out of jobs. So, that's why.

It has been five weeks that I am not working, and it just driving me nuts. Sitting home and do nothing, and despite of that, everytime you go out, the money just slides away slowly... not topping up is such a stressful condition.

I have packed all my stuff, and everything is nicely boxed up. Cleaning the bathroom, kitchen, fridge... and only one thing left, that is to sweep and mop the floor throughout the house. Sigh. I think I have a back pain already with all the huge amount of house chores that I have been exposed to this whole week! :)

I will be moving out later, at 3pm! I am feeling nervous and excited at the same time. God knows how it is like to live with people and those people to live with me! :)

Love life? Things are going well I think, but sometimes, obviously I do think about on how long it is going to be then before I collapsing again as usual! Knowing me, you should know by now that I am always, always unlucky in that department! :) We'll see.

There are just too many things happened in my life at the moment. It's just too many.

So, wish me luck with the moving out, and talk to you guys soon! Here are some of the nicest photos of the new home. Have a good Sunday evening everyone! :)

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