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Saturday, October 30, 2010

An Experiement is Due

So, I have been signing in and off ... but I have been away a lot lately. Sorry!!!!! :(

Anyway, here I am and there are few things that I want to share with you guys. :)

First, I am heading to Dublin in less than a week for my graduation! :) I am so excited yet I am quite nervous about it! But then again, I will only be there for two days and one night before my mummy and I will be heading out to Bratislava, Budapest and Vienna! Fun, fun, fun time for me!! ;) At least, some time off from work... oh the excitement! ;)

Secondly, I got myself an external flash for my Holga camera. And I am so excited to try it out - probably tomorrow. I have also bought several types of films (thanks to my best girlfriend - Sexyinred. You were right about the shop, missus!! ;) Thank you! ) and definitely will be fun to try it out!! Instead of using 120 film to my Holga, I will be using 35mm film. And the results will come out showing the sprocket holes! Fun, eh? ;)

So, that is about it. And I will update more fun photos soon - if the photos turn out okay, of course! ;)

Good night and Happy Halloween peeps! ;) xxxx

Tuesday, October 19, 2010


My graduation in two weeks!! Wee hoooo!!!! ;) My second graduation and it feels like the first time all over again! Haha...

Well, first thing first. What should I wear????

Like, seriously. Guide me. First of all, it's autumn now and knowing Dublin... it's going to be freezingggggg!!! But at the same time, I am so nervous to go back to Dublin! Really... Anyway, any ideas folks?

Oooh, I am a bit excited about it actually. :)

Traa laa laa hum hummm hummm....

Saturday, August 28, 2010


Hi all! I am back!!! ;) Well, I have some updates!

Let's see. One thing for sure, I still hate mosquitoes. I do. They seems to be so aggressive and won't ever give up! I hate them. :(

Then, oh. Next one. Now, it's a fasting month. Ramadhan, where all of us fasting for a month then there is Syawal, the celebration. It's been a while I have not been fasting and break-fast with my whole family since I was away for four years!!! It has been so much fun even though I must admit I felt a bit weak day by day!!! The weather over here is so humid and too hot that makes you feel so exhausted and tired. But it is fine on weekdays since I am in the office the whole day!
Oh, speaking about being in the office, work is madness!!! I have been so busy and it's unbelievably tiring and stressed me out so much! I have to meet unreasonable tight deadlines and I nearly cried. So much of being a crybaby eh? ;)

Well, I think that is it at the moment. I do not have any more news to share. But if I do, I will blog about it soon! ;) So, until then. Tata for now folks. xxx

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Buzzz Buzzzz Lady Bee

Busy bee. That is the best way to express my life at the moment. Work is my priority at the moment. At least, that is how it seems. Pfft... And that also explain why I've been so quiet lately. Therefore, here I am tonight to scribble the whats-in-and-about with my life lately.

One. I hate mosquitoes. I really do. They are so annoying. I think they love me. Like, madly, deeply in love with me. Sadly, "I do not feel the same way" towards them. They're evil. Someone really needs to tell them that I really hate them, so please stop biting me. That won't work. I hate mosquitoes.

Two. If there is ever an event of appreciation award day, where you would vote for someone that you think should be given / honoured an award (not your family members, friends or relatives), I would suggest, without a doubt, one of the guard in our housing area. Not saying that the others are not fit to receive the award, but I strongly vote for this man (Let's call him Guard A - I don't even know his name! See, how ignorant I have become? Sigh). He never fails to smile and greet all the residents who passed by the gate. Awesome guard!! Keep up the good work, Mr. Guard A!!!

Three. There are many mosquitoes under my desk in the office. I am pretty sure about this. Everytime if I decided to stay late - which, that is what I have been doing lately due to many things need to be done and completed asap - the troops never fail to annoyed me and my legs! Damn you guys!

Four. I did announce about I got the job? I think I did. Anyway, I was handed over projects for me to handle on my own! It's awesome but in any other word - busy busy busy lady-bee!!

Five. I drive to work now. Bought my lil-bro's car - it was a long story and I have no intention to stay up late! ;) But one thing for sure, I hate drivers who don't know how to drive! Really, really stupid silly people out there who shouldn't be allowed to drive. I mean it! Sigh.

That is all for today I think. I am so tired. And I think bedtime it is now. See you soon.

Good night, people.

Sunday, July 18, 2010


Hi all!!! :) How's everyone doing?

First thing first. Yesterday was exactly two weeks I started working. It's not so bad. In fact, it's quite fun. But of course, since have not been working as a Quantity Surveyor for about a year, it is a bit awkward to see things. All the drawings, measurements... there is a lot that I have to catch up to be back on track again.

On the other hand, my weekends have been filled with many wedding invitations either from my friends or from my mum's. So, most of every weekends we will not have lunch at home but at wedding receptions instead. It's fun to see the bride in so many different type of wedding dress and decorations made. And of course, in Malay weddings all the guests will be given a token when they leave. This is also the best part of the wedding reception - at least for me.

My favourite part of Malay weddings is to see what will be given - it's either a boiled egg in a nice ceramic cup or sometimes attached to a woven flower made with ribbons? or probably, sweets/chocolates in a little ceramic basket, etc. But traditionally, the boiled egg is the one used since forever. It is called "bunga telur" (flower egg).

As a matter of fact, I just came back from a wedding tonight. And there will be another one tomorrow at lunch time too. See, I told you there are so many invitations! :)

I will catch up with you guys again! Take care and have a good weekend to all!


Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Over The Moon

Hi all! I know, I know. It has been a while. I am sorry. :(

Well, at least I have a good news to tell today! :) Remember the last time when I told you about the job interview that I really and am dying to get the job in the descent yet posh looking office venue? (Did I mentioned about the office is in a posh office building and I get to know about all the details after being tipped by one of my bestest friend on earth who has been working there ages ago! ;) Nice one, Zain! ;) ) Not that I care if the office is beatifully - professionally decorated and I will feel like this is the most amazing moment in my life - living the dream as a successful career woman. Oh, I think I do actually care! ;)

So, my first day would be on Thursday. And I am so excited - over the moon! But at the same time, nervous like crazy!! :( It will be the first time working in an office after so long.

Anyhow, we'll see what happens and I will update soon when it is actually happening. :)

Until then. Have a nice day everyone! ;)

P/S: It's raining heavily over here that somehow it reminds me of Dublin. Aah...

Tuesday, June 22, 2010


It has been a while since I blog. :)

But, here I am now.

I am currently in Kuantan, Pahang. In MS Garden Hotel - in a room. I came in yesterday with mom. She has a meeting somewhere near and decided that I should tag along so that it will be some sort of a little road trip since I am not doing anything much if I stayed at home. So, here I am.

She is already downstairs in the conference room (I suppose?) for a very serious meeting and I am in the room, typing. :) It was a good trip. We had McDonald's on the way here yesterday afternoon and we went shopping for office attire for the interview, last night in Parkson nearby. (Parkson - shopping mall). And we went down for breakfast earlier this morning.

Oh, speaking of interview - yes. I got another job interview tomorrow at 5pm. I had one last week but apparently it was a Contractor's firm and I rather choose a consultant so that I can pursue my professional course - it is a long story and I don't intend to bore you with it. ;) Anyway, wish me luck!!

Oh, there is another news!!! I got my results! (Have I told you about this yet? I don't think so). Well, I got the results last Tuesday, if I'm not mistaken. Sadly, I didn't get first class. :( But, I managed to get Second Class Upper - which is called 2.1, I believe? I am not so familiar with the Ireland's marking scheme (which is similar to UK), but I think it is not too bad! ;)

Hmm.. a very lengthy post today. I think that is all for today. I will update you soon on my whereabouts and things I've done. And also how my interview will be tomorrow. Don't forget to wish me luck! I really need it. I think I really want to get a job in that office! I want, I want! ;)

Speak soon people. Have a lovely day! xxx

Friday, June 18, 2010

Happy Birthday To Me

Well... *grin*

It is my birthday today. :) 18th of June. So, I am officially 29 years old. Eek. Old, eh? ;)

Anyway, I am so happy and may all my wishes come true. I really hope so. :)

Have a nice day everyone!!!

much love

Thursday, June 17, 2010

My Wish List

Oh. It's nearly there. What is? Well, my birthday is!!! :)

It is tomorrow and I haven't think about what I want for my birthday. Sigh. And I will be 29 years old! It's horrible, isn't it? 29????? Eek!!!

So, here is what I can think of at the moment. My wish list (preferences are not in order):-
  • An iPhone (my mobile that I brought home from Dublin cannot be unlocked over here since it is from Europe - apparently European phones locked and can only be unlocked over there! So, an iPhone is not too much to ask! ;) )
  • Volume II and III for The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo. The first book is amazing. And for some reason, since books over here is too pricey, I don't mind if there are people who is going to buy me these. :) I love books, anyway.
  • Any books will do too.
  • A car! :) it would be nice to own a car again, isn't it? ;)
  • Some cash so I can spend on new clothes for interviews? ;)
  • A new laptop? I entered a competition to win a MacBook Pro. If I win that I will be so amazed and impressed with myself! Ha...
  • A birthday card. ;) I love birthday cards. I do.
  • Orchids. The only flower that I love.
  • A simple wish. ;)
So, there you go! ;) I could not think of anything else at the moment. Haha... If I do, I'll add them in.

Have a nice day!!!


Friday, June 11, 2010

Really Upset

For some reason, I got really upset last night. :(

For once, I can't tolerate if someone just trying so hard to tell-tale bad things about my siblings! It is just unforgiven. It seems like it is inappropriate. I love my siblings. So, when someone said really really bad things or being so mean to any of them, I got so angry and of course, upset! :(

Sigh. If this made people labelled me as a drama-queen, so be it. Possibly, I am a drama-queen after all, but I do love my siblings.


Thursday, June 10, 2010

My Lovelies

So, since I am still unemployed and sitting at home doing basically nothing - oh, my sister is at home as well since it is a school holiday, here in Malaysia - my life is filled with fun and joy with these two lovelies.

They are HUGE and as fluffy as one kitten could be! I have been playing with them all day - sometimes they bit me (especially the little one!). The other one is more laid-back and he is as lazy as Garfield while the little one is too playful!

Then, we have another cat as well - the nana for these two as she is so old, probably about 12-15 years of age and she hates these two kiddies!

Everytime they try to make friends, the nana would be so pissed off and hissed at them. But somehow, it shows that these two kiddies respect her for some reason - probably the seniority works in feline-life too! ;)

Well, here are some of the kittens photos. Enjoy and have a nice day people!!


Wednesday, June 9, 2010

So It Has Been A Week

It has been a week since I left Dublin, so this is the first time I am blogging from Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia. Supposedly, a week will allow you to unpack and settle down in a new place but hey hey... guess what? I still have all my clothes in my luggage and none has been done - unpack, I mean. It seems as if I just landed yesterday!! Haha... I have been so busy doing... err, nothing! I have been around - as in, everywhere!!

Today, is the first time it's raining. I am blogging from the living room and it is raining heavily outside! Yup!! It's so heavy but guess what??? There is no ferocious wind as in the one we found in Dublin! ;) But somehow, the rain reminds me of Dublin.

It has been really, I mean... really really warm over here. It's a huge difference from Dublin, clearly! The first few days (even this morning), I could not stop complaining to mum and dad, oh and even my brothers and sister of how much it annoys me. Every ten minutes I was like, "this is so hot!" ;)

Hopefully, I will stop complaining soon! ;)

Well, I think I might take a nap for a while. It's raining and I think a nap would be nice! I will update soon and 'till then, have a nice day! ;)


Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Tata For Now

This is my last post from Dublin. I am leaving Dublin in approximately 3 hour? :(

It has been a pleasant stay and I am definitely going to miss Ireland so much. A lot of things happened to me here - fun things, sad things, enjoyable things and all sort of things. I have a lot of memories in Dublin, a lot of. This is really sad. So so sad. :(

Until we meet again, someday. Perhaps?


Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Happily Ever After... NOT!!!

Every princess has their own knight shinning armour, who save her from all the trouble and bad things - then at the end, they live happily ever after.

Well, that might be what every fairytale books tells. But, in real life?

In real life, you probably thought you have found your knight shinning armour but the thing is, it doesn't apply to all - you might not live happily ever after together. :(

Or, there is just nothing you can do about it. Even though, if there are sparks, love, chemistry exists - but it just won't happen. There is just nothing you can do about it.

I hate goodbyes.


Sunday, May 30, 2010

Monstrous Thought

Ever since I know how to interact and communicate with people, there is something that never fails to amuse me - people's behaviour. Yes, there is a group of people who is kind and nice to others. And of course, there is another group, which gathers the opposites. As many other things in life, there is also a group of the in-betweens.

As in for me, I could never understand the mean people. :( The one who is so mean to others - who talks or speaks without boundaries, don't care what people think and never think, at least for a second of what they will say will probably is inappropriate. But then again, I got to learn that these people probably is the most insecure person one could ever imagine! ;) That explains the insensitivity and non-tolerance towards another human being.

It's a pity, eh? They might have hurt so many kind and nice people out there, but hey... these people are fine. They always bounce back, since they are kind and nice people. But the mean people? It's quite a crisis! They better know how to stop quickly before they become a monster with no friends! ;)

Food for thought from b4by on Sunday!

Happy weekends, everyone!!!


Three More Sleeps

It's three more sleeps before I am officially leaving Ireland. :'(

It feels a bit awkward. It feels so strange. And well, in terms of packing? It is not going so well. I need to order another one medium box for shipping since I could not fit in all into my suitcase! Disgraceful! My suitcase itself is as big as a mini fridge!! Probably bigger than that! And I already shipped two large boxes last month! Sigh. Can't wait to hear my mom nagging me when she sees all the boxes filled up with my junk arrived! ;)

My room still looks all messed up - as if there was a tornado, a very huge one just passed by. Even though, most of the stuff is in the bag! See, this is what I meant! Packing is never too easy and never underestimate the size of the room - it is always tricky to pack! There must and always be something left behind. :) (uuhh, deep meaning!!!! haha...)

Anyway, this is it. Few more days then I am leaving. As I said earlier, there's only three more sleeps before ending my little adventure in Ireland and pacing upfront for yet another exciting journey of my life in another continent! ;)

Ah, three more sleeps...

Thursday, May 27, 2010

Me, My Nose & My Throat

I just got home. It's 1.53am now. I went to my friend's place. She cooked for me - a way of saying goodbye. I suppose more like a farewell hang out thing? I went there with another friend. We had fun! There were so many food!! Home-made bread sticks, garlic bread, pizza (yes, it is home-made pizza!!!) and chocolate chip cookies with ice cream!!! It was yummy and it was amazing.

Then, my friend sent me home. So, here I am.

I really don't feel so good. It's the cold! It annoys me. My nose is blocked. My throat is so sore. And I keep on having small little coughs, that tickles my throat.

I hate being sick!!!!

I just gulped on the cough syrup and sinus tablet. So, let's just hope tomorrow will be a good day for me, my nose and my throat!!! :(

Speak soon, guys. xxx

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Counting the Days

This is it. I am leaving Ireland in ten days. It's a bit awkward, really. I mean, I have been living in Dublin for like, four years. And now that I am leaving - everything feels so weird. (I know I have been repeating myself over and over again, but this is the truth. I am feeling a bit awkward to leave!).

Some people would probably thought that four years is nothing. It's not as if I live here throughout my childhood years, or perhaps... ten years at least. But hey, trust me. Four years - means a lot to me! I'm here when I was 25 years old till I am 29 years old (this year!). So, those meaningful age where you got to grow up - become an adult. And here I am, in Dublin.

Somehow, it feels like I am moving to a foreign country and Ireland is somewhat my hometown! I know this might sound weird to you, but this is what I am experiencing at the moment.

Ah well. We'll see what happens when the time really comes.

Speak soon! xxx

Thursday, May 20, 2010

One Last Paper

So, today is my last exam!! Wee hoo!! ;) Can't wait for the moment when I have to complete the last sentence in my answer book!!!

Well, first thing first. I just need to have some faith that I can actually do this exam - even though deep inside I do feel like a total loser, trying so hard to remember the things that I have read! Sigh.

Anyway, this is it! Exam starts at 2pm and I need to get ready now.

I will update soon. Take care and have a happy Thursday to all! ;)


Sleepy Head

I am feeling so sleepy! I really am. I just want this to be over soon!!!

I could not stand any minute of staring at these notes anymore. Sigh. This is so hard even though this would be the last paper I will ever have to sit for (touch wood - I hope I will not fail this paper!!!)

Well, wish me luck guys. And, I'll see you later. Good night! ;)


Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Hot Off The Press

Hey all. Here you go! ;) Hot off the press!! (well, literally...)

The Upside Down of Me is changing to a new, fresher look! ;) I just love the top banner. Try and scroll your mouse on the flowers and the clouds! Aah... it's amazing! I am loving it!

But, since I am not that so much of an expert... the tweaking took me ages! And I did lost few things.

Anyway, I still love it. I think it looks amazing! What do you think?

Special thanks to Ipietoon who create this blog template called Flower Garden. It's simply adorable and beautiful! ;) Cheers!!

Have a nice day, people! xxx

The Tale of Colourful Shoes

One paper down and one more to go, baby! ;)

The exam went well. I think. I mean, I was running out of time. It's always a good sign when you don't have enough time to fill in your answer book, isn't it? Unless the book is filled with my own yet another crappy ideas on inflation, land use and construction employment? Oh dear. Let's just not dwell on the past, shall we? ;)

On my way home, I walked passed the shops. Many colourful shops stocked with people. Many colourful people, shop. I just walked quickly, not to pay any attention to the others. Eyes on the ground and just wish that I have longer legs so that I will have wider steps, that I can be home quickly. I feel a bit groggy, perhaps I am still unwell? (Oh yes, but I got myself the sinus-congestion tablets on my way home.)

Then I saw shoes. Many shoes. Colourful shoes. A pair of shoes walking - alone, eh? Two pairs of shoes walking together - a happy couple? Or perhaps, two friends? Or maybe, mother and daughter? Many pairs - group of friends? Or perhaps, a double date? ;)

You won't know the truth until you look up and see it yourself. :)

"Never assume the obvious is true"
William Safire

It was a good game. :)

Well, people. I have to get back to the books now.
Have a good evening, everyone. *twirl sedately*

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

I Want Biscuits!

I know I should be studying. I am. It's just that I am thinking about having biscuits with a cup of tea. :) Imagine the yummy creamy digestive cream biscuits! Yumms! ;)

I want biscuits. Should I take a break and go over to Tesco to get a packet of biscuits? Or should I just ignore my undying craving for biscuits? Hmm...

I want biscuits!

Monday, May 17, 2010

I Think I've Got A Cold Coming On

When I woke up today, I just don't feel so good. My head is feeling so heavy as if I am having a cold! I have a blocked nose and... oh! And a sore throat too! I am feeling the worst of all time especially I will be sitting for my exam tomorrow! :(
Wish me luck, guys! ;) I have to get back to study now. Take care and I will see you soon!

xx Hugs & Kisses xx

Saturday, May 15, 2010


Coffee...!!! Mmmm...

I have been dying to get a cup of coffee since yesterday! I was supposed to get the instant coffee from Tesco, together with the rest of the list in my groceries shopping. But, I did not. Surprisingly, I managed to get the other stuff - bananas, onions, wholegrain bread, broccoli, etc. Just not the coffee. Silly me. ;)

But, I just got back from Tesco. And, YES. I got a jar of instant coffee - Carte Noire. It's not that bad. I love it. But then again, everyone has their own taste and liking? ;)

Well, I guess that is all for today's little update. The coffee adventure. :)

Until then. xxx

Study Time!

It's a tea break! Nothing is more exciting than the tea break! :)

Well, I have been studying for the whole day today - dealing with chapters by chapters of construction employment, inflation and indices, urban land use - yawn! I know. But it has to be done. :( Those are some of the chapters for my Construction Economics subject. The first exam, which will be on Tuesday. Then, another exam on Thursday. One more week to go then I will be free from exams! :) Can't wait!

In the meantime, I just have to bear with it.

Good night, everyone. I'm signing off - and back to my books!

Kisses. xxx

Friday, May 14, 2010

I Think Someone Is Stalking Me?

Well, I know I just posted an entry earlier today. But, this is important!

I think someone is stalking me. It might sound a bit silly or crazy (especially when I should be studying and concentrating on reading my notes for my exams next week!) but I think I am not imagining things!

I don't know whether should I be proud or should I be scared instead? ;)

Oh dear! Whatever it is, it's surely something for me to ponder upon! ;) Good night. xxx

30 Scares Me!

I will be 30 next year. Somehow, today I had a thought about it. Just now. Yes. I am going to be 30 next year and it is a bit scary, don't you think so? I will no longer be in my 20s. It feels a bit weird, I must say.

30 is supposed to be a successful age, where you have a descent job and a proper life. A professional life, perhaps? The age where people look up on you. Not like what I am having now, clearly. Well, I know that I am yet to be 30 this year, but still... next year is just around the corner and I am still me. Uhh... :(

Aging is a bit scary, don't you think? People expect so many things from you and you have all this decision in your hands. Why can't we still go to the park and feed the ducks and not think about being 30 next year? Being 30 is big. Maybe I should have a list of things to do before I reach 30? ;)

Going to be 30 is a big thing and I am clearly not looking forward to be 30. Sigh.

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

I Am One Messed Up Lass

I'm feeling so weird. So confused. And I think this is really bad.

I should not have been there. Is this a big mistake? Or it was meant to be that way? Oh, the confusion is tearing me apart! This is not a good sign because err... I am leaving in 3 weeks!! Clearly!!! What was I thinking?

Well, after 8 months... such hard work. Now it feels like I am back to square one!

I'm pretty messed up at the moment. Full stop.

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Just 29 More Days!

Hey all! I have something important Photobucket to announce... I am leaving Ireland in 29 days!!! I am so excited!!! Wee hooo!!! PhotobucketI am so excited. But at the same time, I do feel sad. I mean, I have been living in Ireland for almost 4 years now and it has been an amazing experience. I have met a lot of people Photobucket, experiencing the weather (yes, the famous - crazy, very unpredictable weather that never fail to pissed me off! Photobucket ) and all sort of things one could ever do in a place called home. It is sad but then again, life must go on. And clearly, I am not becoming any younger, but older! (Or, should I say, mature? Photobucket) So, I think (yes, I did put a lot of thoughts into it) to leave is the best option one could ever made. I have shipped all the boxes, bought the most gigantic suitcase one could ever possess... and now I just have to study Photobucket (errr, I mean STUDY milkysmile) for my exams, which is in two weeks time, then I am free!!! Photobucket

I will keep you guys posted, okay? Wish me luck for my exams!!! milkysmile eh, this one... Photobucket Later! xxxx

Sunday, April 25, 2010

Go Girl!! ;)

This week has been the most active week I had so far! I have been off from work for a week, submitted my thesis and only two more subjects to study for my exam. So, which is the active part then? It seems like a lazy week http://www.emocutez.com isn’t it?

Well, I have noticed that I have been sluggish at times and oh yes! I have been munching snacks way too much and this is bad, very bad indeed. Plus, I have not been working my ass out other than walking to Tesco to buy food! http://www.emocutez.com This is disgraceful!

So, I’ve decided to do some workout to stay healthy. Besides that, it has been reported that when you are active, your brain works better – I can use this for my studying for the exam!

And yes! I have been doing this massive workout http://www.emocutez.com video by Tracy Anderson and yup!! She kicked my http://www.emocutez.com ass!! Somehow, the method is amazing and it actually works!! I do not feel sluggish anymore but rejuvenated! I have been doing this for a week now (everyday for at least one hour, some days two) and I am pleased. But, the first two days… my arms feel so sore http://www.emocutez.com and legs! Oh dear. That shows how terrible I was before, being inactive for quite a while. Oh, silly me. But now, I think my body is adapting. We’ll see.

Anyway, enjoy the rest of the weekend and here is a sample of how her video is all about! I personally, http://www.emocutez.com LOVE IT! Perhaps, you want to give it a try? ;)

Take care!!http://www.emocutez.com

P/S: The emoticons - got the idea from my couz. Cheers couz! :)

Saturday, April 24, 2010

A Peanut In A Matchbox

Have you ever eaten a packet of peanuts? Have you ever used a match from a matchbox? What would you say if you see a peanut in a matchbox? How would you feel if you are the peanut in the matchbox? Feeling odd? Out of place?

Yes. I believe so. I am feeling exactly the same. I do feel like a peanut in a matchbox just knowing the fact that I am heading home soon. It scares me to actually be in a position of a peanut in a matchbox. The journey home would soon be like the peanut’s expedition en route for the matchbox world.

Clearly, there will be no peanuts around, but there will only be one match, two matches, three matches and many matches. There might be a match or two, which were known as a peanut before, but things changed. And they are all gone. The peanut will be so alone and undoubtedly, on its own! Pity the peanut, but life must go on.

It will be a new passage of life, for the peanut of course. But it will not be easy on the peanut. It is a big challenge. It is as if like going to school for the first time, which involved making new friends, adapting to the new environment, to be accepted as who you are – especially when you are unmistakably different from the rest of the crew!! Peanuts are not matches. Not in any way, and this will make it harder.

Huh. Let’s just hope the peanut will succeed. But still, I do feel like a peanut in a matchbox. Now it is only the beginning, but once the time is here when I ought to jump onto that plane… then the tale of being a peanut in a matchbox begins.

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Love & Attractions

Hello. It is Sunday, then. I woke up quite early to wait up for the guys to come and collect my boxes to be shipped. Email received stating that they will be doing the collection between 8am - 6pm. And, nope. They did not specify the actual time. So, here I am - WAITING!

So, while waiting... (and still am), I couldn't help but wondered about love and attractions. Could you ever be so ignorant with feelings (any kind of feelings) that soon it began to fade and just vanished? And, since it has been ignored for quite some time, at some point you are not in any position to feel anything at all, which makes you the numbest of all? Which, of course made you the most ignorant and heartless person in the world! But then, what?

What if someone fail to be in a relationship again just because the feelings were ignored in the past? What if someone decided, choose to not to be in a relationship anymore after what has happened in the past? And, just what if there is no emotion left to be felt since the past has been too much torture and could not be put up with to any further extent?

But, then again… we might not know until we are actually set foot in that situation. Or else, it will be another set of different story all over again if at the end we finally met that one person who is one gifted person who could light up our lives with fancy coloured bulb lights, as the way we always wanted it to be lit up! Like a dream comes true? :)

Well, the truth is… one will never know until they are in it! :)

“Love withers with predictability; its very essence is surprise and amazement. To make love a prisoner of the mundane is to take its passion and lose it forever.”

Leo F. Buscaglia


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