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Sunday, October 26, 2008

First Time?

Hey. Weather today has been really weird. It has been raining all day, and I can hear the raindrops tapping on my balcony table outside the balcony. It is a pleasant but annoying noise at the same time.

I haven't gone out from the house ever, at all since yesterday. I think I am cocooning myself in the house, with instant noodle and few bits of sitcoms re-runs. I could not even go out as well, even though if I feel like going out. I am broke, I am so dead broke. We are not getting paid, at least not until next week. How horrible it could go wrong?

Mr. Tall Guy is over at County Laois to his parents since Friday, but then he will be back tonight. He might come over to say hello, later on I think.

There is the other issue with Mr. Tall Guy. I think he is so shy. He is actually. In an odd way. Is it possible that he has never had a girlfriend before and I am the first girl he as ever be close with? Not that I am saying I am his girlfriend at the moment, but I could not afford not to think that he is shy and it is bad that now, I am in his life, and I am so much older than him? Will that affect everything, that we have now? Should I be worried about my age and start to be pessimist about every little single thing?

Even I don't know if I do like this guy for real or not? Maybe it is just a fling. That I enjoyed the undivided attention I have from a person of the opposite sex? Would that be the thing instead of the feelings inside?

I am so confused, but one thing for sure, I had that butterfly in my tummy everytime when I saw that I got a text messages from him, or even when I see him. I am so embarassed whenever I saw him and it is always like the first time I met a guy that I like. Is that normal?

I don't really know, and for the time being... I don't really care. What I think the best thing to do is, just to go with the flow and enjoy life. Uhuhh, Aunty Flow is in town at the minute. And I surely have all the cramps and menstrual pain!

That doesn't help either, but hey... can't complaint! At least, I am still breathing! :)

Good night, everyone!! *twirl*

2 twirls with baby:

Daddy Papersurfer on October 26, 2008 at 3:41 AM said...

Hello Baby - sorry I haven't been around,very busy unusually, and sorry you're broke ...... still never mind, you usually end up smiling ......

shle3pyb4by on October 26, 2008 at 6:22 PM said...

hey daddy! yeah. things are really really bad financially! we got our salary too early in september, and with october (5 weeks!!), everyone in the office is surely having the same problem with me! so, its not too bad!

just really bad that we have the long weekends, for the bank holiday on monday. so, here i am! at home, doing nothing but being lazy! :)


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