With Or Without

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It has been a hectic week for me, these past few days. Too many things to do at once in the office, somehow it cracked my brain - a bit.

I have never felt so exhausted yet still confused about the life I had and have ahead. It is the rhythm of life, I'd say. At one time, you will be up in the sky and on the other hand, you will be collapsing, shattered, scattered on the ground.

My dream, supposed to be my get-away birthday vacation, (at this moment), might not happened. Despite all the stress at work, weather, friends... this thing pissed me off big time. Somehow, this person just told me that it might not be possible for this person to go to Tenerife. I won't mind if I have to stay late in the office to finish up a job that should be done there and then. I won't mind to have to go through heavy rain with wind, to come back from work late at night. I won't mind to be neglected and ignored once they have found another friend... but a cancellation for MY birthday get-away is a big no-no. I am waiting for this. It was my dream. It was one of my wishlist, and now it is in vague.

Why would a person promised, then break the promise as if nothing happened? Is that the new proposition of extremist propoganda? Have I been so not up to date to realize that it is actually, okay to behave like that? Or am I being so childish to get, and to actually get what I want on my birthday that has not been celebrated two years ago?

It is all too confusing at the moment. I have thought about it. If this person is not going, things are going to get reallllyyyyy ugly. I mean, really really ugly.

And whatever it is, I am still going. With or without this person! Full stop.

Hugs & Kisses

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Hey hey... *wink*

Day by day, I think that the world has been unfair to me. It's not that I am getting the bad luck all the time, but it was the other way round! *smile sheepishly*

Things have gone more and more nicer, and better... way too high for me to expect, and it is the unexpectable! Inexplicable!

Life has been treating me good, so good as in too good to be true! *another wink with a twirl* The last time, I was so broken, scattered on the floor, like there was no way, I can be as happy as I can be now. Honestly, this is the best, the moment that I have been waiting for.

Everything in my life... my work. It has been so good, that I am basically enjoying every minute I am in the office. It's not like the last time, when I feel like I am one hopeless employee. Not anymore. I feel the job I am in now, and happy with the work I have. Of course there will be time that I think that I have had enough of work, but life would be so boring without that kind of feeling, wouldn't it? *wink*

And my so-called love life? *grinning*

The other pair socks of mine... Hmm, things are getting better, surprisingly! It looks like I am the girl of his dream now. Everyday, there must be a text from him, asking how am I doing for the day. Isn't that class? Why would he be bothered, even though if I am not there with him at the moment? Why would he be so caring after all this while? This is unbelievable! Oh, and of course... since the last couple of days, he never missed to come over and see me, even though for just five minutes!!! *grins*

My tummy, nowadays... always filled with thousands and millions of butterflies!! It's like back in high school, whenever u saw your crush walking by in front of you, you will get the butterflies in the tummy feeling! What just happened to me? Did I just got strucked by the love-angel spells, somehow, when I was dead asleep?

Oh, and sometimes... he just came over with the reason to borrow a DVD, then that is it. Like, what is actually going on here?

Whatever it is, I am enjoying every bit of it! I can't wait for my birthday getaway! Plus, he will be there, definitely. It would be much more fun, and full of excitement, I think... *wondering*

Off to bed now. Jot down something else, tomorrow. Have a good night sleep, people! Love you all to bits! *kisses*

A Blessing

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Hey all. I have been keeping quiet for quite a while now. It's not that I am busy partying, or sorts like that. Just that I have been too busy in the office too. Too much work to do, that having me ended up on bed everytime I came back from work. Keeping me tired and weak to write or jot down some crappy stuff of mine. That's why.

I have been lagging on fueling as well this past few days. Same reason applied. *sigh* I meant to apologies, to all of the people whom I love, in the blogsphere... of course. *wink*

Anyway, things have been blooming out beautifully for me, as pretty as the day when the sun shine basically every single day in Dublin. Blessed!

I just couldn't wait the moment to go to the airport and swooshing away to Tenerife, in about two to three weeks time. I'll be heading there in the middle of June, right after my birthday. I just can't wait!! *big smile*

Things have gone better, better and good for me. The other socks is always by my side, and I mean as always, is always. He came over and cook, he texted at least once a day, we went to coffee sometimes when I finished work and truly exhausted, we drunk for few glasses, basically he was always there. And more, he treated me like a well-known, higher position, like some princess, somehow. It's getting strange and more strange, but to adapt the advice that I was getting from you guys, I am flowing with the flow of life, meant to be written for me. Probably summer means something great for me, I guess?

Regarding my vacation, basically all of my friends were neglecting me, on the trip itself. Therefore, probably some of them are coming, but weird as it can be, the other socks is in the list and he got the ticket as well. And the hotel is booked under his name, with the reason... a present for my birthday!! And it's not going to be a short vacation, as it is a week vacation itself! How strange can it be? What has gotten into him that make him turned to me, after all this while? Do I look different from before? More appealing? Or my goddess's shines shone throughout the summer sunny days? Or did I somehow, accidentally appeared to be attractive, somehow? What could it be?

Whatever is the reason is, I am quite enjoying the trip of what I am having now. All the attention that I got. It's unbelievable, and refreshing! *wink*

I guess I will be tattling again soon, about what's on and what's coming! Talk to you guys later. Happy Sunday!! *twirl and blow some kisses to everyone*

Tips On Getting Back On Senses

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Few articles have been searched and read... and it all comes to one conclusion.

I have been reading through all things I googled up, and this is basically the list of things that I should be doing to get it started!

1. Love yourself before planning to fall in love with anyone. (This is actually so true! I have to like myself before I want someone else to like me, or before I want to make someone else to be interested in me! So, let's roll on!)
2. Be gorgeous, as when you looks good, the confident just boost up! (Looks good and people look up on you. So, here I come!! I will be evolved from my cocoon to become quite a graceful butterfly!)
   
3. Ignorance is always a bliss! So, ignore him and you'll soon get what you are waiting for! (I won't be hogging him, looking at his way or anything alike. We'll see what happens!)
   
4. Guys hate rejections and competitions! So, twinkle your eyes and the bees will be swarming all over you! (This will simply be done with a new look and a girly giggles... *wink*)
   
5. Don't beg but let him beg! ((Looking good, with loads of confidence in oneself, looking posh and class... I'll get this done in no time! *giggles*)
   
6. Don't be cheap, but be classy! (Not dressing up like a trash, with more skins revealed, but classy like so I won't look like a tramp, but a princess!)
   

Basically, that tells the tale! And, this is exactly what I will be doing. I am back in the rhythm, and I know I have been swaying far away these past few days. But heck with it, as I think I already got the hold of this music. So, let it begins!

I am starting off tomorrow by having a new hair-do! It is a girl day out for me tomorrow, and I am going to make use of it!

Wish me luck!

Return From The Dungeon?

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Hello people!! *wink* Aah... how soothing! Tomorrow is Friday! Yiippeee!!! *twirl and a star jump*

Hmm, how wonderful life can be, despite of the dreadful weather we are having here, in Dublin. *sigh* Anyway, everything is good. I am coping back, on my two little feet! *wink* Despite from all the tiredness, sickness, cold sores, tonsilitis and stuff that have been going on around me, I forgot to spill this out... Tadaaaaaa...!!!

Did I ever mentioned that my other half socks is back? 'It' is basically, hmm... how should I say, return from the dungeon? But of course, experiencing from the traumatic and hectic situation before, I am well prepared now. I am too fragile. Like a piece of china-ware. Afraid to be broken, again. And of course, scared to be scarred, again. But, again... I am walking carefully on the path ahead. We will see how. Whatever it is, it has been so good. I am so happy indeed, yet cautious at the same minute.

We'll see.

Ahh, but the details... I is so funny how we got to this point, back again... Too funny to believe! I'll pop in some news some other time! *wink*

Anyway, Happy Thursday people!! *wink*

I love you all to bits!!!! *twirl, blowing kisses and a star jump to conclude*

Sick, Tired & Searching For My Other Half... Again!!

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I just don't feel too good today. I woke up with a really bad sore throat! I couldn't even hear my own voice. It was a big disaster!

I feel so weak, and so sick. I guess the sickness is coming back, again! Obviously, it is due to the crappy weather we got here. One time it was so sunny, and the other... stormy, rainy and gloomy. Probably the body could not cope anymore. Just like the birds, confused by their own thoughts; whether to sing or to fly away.

That is how crap Dublin's weather is.

Anyway, somehow... I think I miss my other half. I truly am. I know it's crap, pathetic, like I can't get over it, simply because i just can't get over it!! I have tried. So hard. Just that I haven't seen 'it' for quite sometimes now. And probably by now, he already knew what had happened last weekends. That somebody is actually has his eyes on me, and probably (again!), that he is pissed and decided not to contact me anymore. Duuh! How ironic!

I am sick, and I am missing my other half. Eat me alive, please...!!

P/S: It's the pinky stripe one... *sigh*